excuse me sir can you point me towards september?
man with mustache looks confused and runs away in a baking soda colored shirt
mom i got the job!
casey you need to start running again, and did you even brush your hair today
dad and i share a wince and sister calls, hey fam i'm just dropping in to say i have a 5.0 gpa this semester and my boyfriend is doing his residential at a hopsital owned by a columbia grad, kisses!! mallory
im guessing this isn't a good time to tell constance and alonzo that im gay
so i pick at a hangnail and ask what's for dinner instead
the answer: EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF NIGHT
sighs from person one, two, and three.
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when in 8th grade I was sitting alphabetically next to two people on a flight home from tampa bay for our graudation trip which used to go to france or say belgium maybe, this kid named reid who would skype girls while he smoked spliffs (i would've said weed but rhyming seems passive), said to me that he loved metric or was it muse? I can't remember because my sister put that music on my hot pink shiny ipod and reid had the purple version, one time he touched my hand in spanish class, and later that month i kissed him for a dare and i kept telling my friend hannah that i got sparks and she said it's probably because reid had braces. i got really hot and stared at his fingers which were always shaking especially when he drank from his sigg waterbottle and i said yeah haha and quickly shuffled the pink thing and the next song was girl by beck my actual favorite song for the longest time even though i would skip it because i couldn't understand a word beck was actually saying.
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this week i learned that i can defer admission to a college, which i already knew, and that i'm probably going to go to community college but the sucky thing is all the philosophy classes are taught by white men, and there are no creative writing classes for first years but last night i found a writing class under the art majors section and i gonna take it i swear. i also realized that i hate purple and green together and i kept telling everyone that i liked green because an ex science teacher of mine did, he played us the movie, whale rider, in 5th grade on a rainy day, and i hid in the back laughing with friends about how stupid it was but honestly it's become my favorite movie.
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i used to play sims every day after school in middle school and my mom took it away because we shared a computer and one day she logged on and this was after i got in trouble for looking at lesbian porn because i friend dared me and all the people looked like robots and it made my sto mach hurt, but the family in sims was two girls an d ironically the town was called lesbians and i found the sims cd under a shoebox in my moms closet an d tried to put it in my computer but it wouldn't run , and i fucking swear if another grey and red box about adobe pops up i will throw my computer out of the window and i hope the neighbor's dog does a doo on it.
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tfw when all yr friends can now say pretenciously , yesh im a liberal arts student, and they make COLLEGE !! playlists on spotify, and you make ones titled ernie called yesterday, and i'm so sad so they can get the message to delete facebook for you so that you can't stalk their FRESHMEN YEAR AT COLGATE album.
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i had a dream last night that a guy killed me and said it was only to keep us safe, and maybe it's because i fell asleep on the right side of the bed which if i turn my head this way always gives me nighmares and night sweats and i'm not sure why but it's been this way for a really long time.
i keep signing emails with very best and singing in my room which in it hangs a brown jumper that i need to hem,
cbnl
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