bookmarks, untimely ringing of the bell

hello,
do you also find yourself smiling on the bus while listening to a podcast or song? If you nodded yes even though I cannot pose this question in person, I appreciate your nature.

I have been listening to the podcast song exploder on the bus, and oh my--it's so wonderful while travelling alone to hear the voices of others, that is why I truly don't believe anyone can be 100% "lonely/alone"

Anyways, as of this week, my mom bought two whole bags of small apples at trader joes, I finally realized that being open about thinks youre self concoius about it not alone honest but quite refreshing. re: thursday's mediation class, rolls under a t-shirt, and bringing to life (unnamed person) their vulnerabilities. Besides analyzing this, I have been watching videos about reading books, and avoiding finishing 'the woes of the true policeman' because I like the cover, and the words are written so small, and it's become very hard to digest without first falling asleep. thank god I haven't stained the pages with sleep saliva.

I know it's important to make goals and write them down, but writing them down most often disables me from completing said tasks so right now writing this blog is an active reminder of my two times a week goal, if it isn't already obvious. no more saturdays. I like monday's and wednesdays.

I walked up a huge hill two times this week, and gave a presentation in class, and met a kid named glenn who really likes beanies, and cried a lot about: thanksgiving, my sister's ipod library from like 2010, and getting tickets to see antigone, not all in this order.

I turn 19 in more or less a week, and the only thing I really hope to use this 19th year to do is waste less, maybe that means using more comma's in my work, or maybe it means not buying a whole lot of new things, ever heard of fast fashion and textile waste? Yes I love fashion, but it seems everything I adore is impacting the earth negatively, cow farts are especially harmful to the ozone.

If your stomach isn't twisted and you haven't lost hope yet, I will continue to write here, to work the muscle or 'jimmies' and my legs will continue to shake when I and idly sitting in a chair waiting for some direction.

I reccomend you listen to some Laura Groves before it gets cold, and let your body react without hesitation.

Sometime next week is going to be an essay on religion if you dislike religion press fast forward (aka don't read). I might see 'the intern' later this week and while I dislike chronicling my life, mostly because it's very uninteresting expect nothing more and I may just put out some fiction.

my new motto is: EDIT-ADD-EDIT

and I now would like a tattoo that reads: I BELIEVE ANITA HILL

hope youre warm n cosy,
cbnl