ske--ske--
what i'd say to you---or sing
12 / cough syrup by young the giant - found this song on billboard one day while I was listening to stupid bruno mars because everyone at school loved him, so glad i found young the g (fka the jakes) instead. today i deny all previous contact of knowing the band because who evens listens to young the giant nowadays that doesn't have at least 5 plaid shirts and ray ban sunglasses.
13 / all will be well by the gabe dixon band - was never a fan of country and there was the dave matthews band which i typed in wrong when asking my sister to send me music (she frequently did this sending me itunes files over gmail because i was an obnoxious teenager who begged for an ipod, simultaneously begging for it to be filled)--anyways this has become one of my favorite songs and I played it over 100 times in 9th grade, such the opposite of teen angst...also i'm glad my interest with this kind is over because nowadays when i think of the indie-folk bands like the lumineers who just yell "hey!' a lot, i wanna make a scream smoothie and force the lead singer to drink it
15 / kiss another day goodbye by david kauffman & eric caboor - skipped 14 because that year is misty from all the cringes i've wasted on it's back of the bus memories. anyhow, at 15 life was hell for me because i didn't have uggs and blonde hair. stupidly now-a-days i couldn't be caught dead in uggs or dying my hair blonde, i'm not sure whether this was my whole deal with perfectionism or the most cliche start to a life of depressing wants and needs, but i would send myself this song packed with chocolate bars so i could spend my time on something sweeter than the hate i had for kids i wanted to be. ugh teenagerhood is really a sickly illness, i wish i was on some farm around that time, maybe i would have some useful skills around now, and not be half deaf in one ear from blasting it with cobra starship *cringe* can't believe what i listened too. also this song is in a movie i just can't put my finger on which one, gosh darnshit.
16 / mistaken for strangers by the national - so i had friends, actually a lot were poc (wow that sounded like an arrogant way to pat myself on the back) i stopped going to church which burns my chest everytime i think that, and i started grieving for the person i used to be, careless and silly and not afraid of yell out what i felt like in public. i think lots of ppl start wearing masks around this age, i think orwell said a quote on it, like you wear a mask, but your skins molds to it?? idk read it in some book, anyways this was my first encounter with the national (aka i stole a mixtape my sister's friend made for her and pretended i liked this music when in reality i went back to jonas brothers because what the fuck?)
17 / mountain top - bedouin soundclash - this always played through my sisters bedroom and one time i wrote down the lyrics so i could look up what the song was on youtube and i couldn't find it so i asked my sister, and started stomping out my purple carpet pretending i was in a travelling band going to canada--this songs feels sort of reggae to me and i hope i never admired whiteys with dreadlocks when i listened to this--ew cringe actually there was this one point where i wanted to be a nudist hippie and run away and be homeless, whattheheck and also i used to start bands with my friends and one time when i was in 5th grade i sent an email to this girl calling my best friend and her possey, 'those fucking bitches' because they ripped up the songs i wrote for our 'girl band' i was a little mini dictator, ahh just found that email in my mom's drawer--what a memento!
18 / everything i am by kayne west - because, 18, which I still am gonna be for a couple more months but i will move onto 'i wonder' when i turn 19 and a literary magazine accepts my crappy prose, until then...'ohwoahowah, damn, here we go again, people talking shit but when the shit hit the fan, everything i'm not made me everything i am' i miss kayne halfway singing--rip my man.
beyond...keep your head up kid, do more things and you can't be so miserable, yeah? oh yeah!
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