commitment

I have not posted on this blog since last year. Yeah lets just say I quit a lot of things. Because starting something ( a hobby, a game, a t.v. show on Netflix) involves a bit of commitment more than I am willing to put into anything.

So moving into 2015 (since we are like 48 hours away) I think I'm just gonna commit to this and some other things of course because I am quite the dreamer. But I love blogs, I love reading about people and how they're doing, I love different perspectives, and I love the ability to have a platform for my writing where my ugly handwriting is COMPLETELY out of sight. I actually am trying to commit to writing in my journal more as well but recently I found Nikki's blog, and her spirit for writing made me want to start it up again, (thanks for the inspiration!). And for now I found this poem in my journal that was written randomly in the car but I'm gonna tell my anxiety to shut up and post it anyways.

3:51 PM
November 16, 2014

the sun's coming out so maybe I 

can be happy.

I don't want be in this place forever

But for right now this is one

of my only decisions.

Because I've got not strikes left,

no roads less traveled to take,

the gas has left the tank. 

I wanna run but my 

lungs disagree with me.

My heart, flopping around

in my chest like a fish out

of water,

is not so sure where it belongs. 

I can't run away,

because if a rainbow happens to show itself,

I'll be too far away this time.

The storm may keep rumbling on,

but eventually, 

when I least expect it to,

it will end.

i wrote this really fast and I have lots more to put on this blog so don't worry about this silly post and please stay tuned!

i should go preheat the oven now,

casey